I am drowning in anxiety. It’s eating me from the inside out.
It’s not the fact that I haven’t had a proper job in months; or the fact that very soon I won’t have a job at all. It’s not the fact that I have to move house and sign a new lease that I’m not sure I’ll even be able to keep up. It’s not the fact that after almost 10 years living on my own, supporting myself, being independent; I may have to admit defeat and move home.
After all that time, I’ve finally worked out that I just needed to let go. If only I could have worked this out six months ago. The relief that came with this realisation was really overwhelming.
Today I’m not only happy but totally stress free. Now that the hard work is done, It feels about time to start enjoying life to the full again.
I keep getting this urge to go out and try out all of the things that I’ve been missing out on. I crave new experiences. I have a new urge to learn.